Fingers rushing to get it out
Brain pumping fast
Inspiration pouring out

Poems
Songs
Works of art

I spend days
Writing out my
Simple inspiration

A play
book or
lullaby

I paint
I write
I sing

I do anything
I am inspired
I create beauty

Ode to my allergies

5/27

Allegra
Claritin
Benedryl
Tylenol allergy
Why can't someone just fix me?

Sneezing
Sniffling
Watery eyes
RUnny nose
What the hell is up today?

Miserable
Sickly
Congrested
No relief from medicine
When will this pass?

Tissues in my purse
Water in y eyes
Pajamas in school
Fog in my brain
Why can't I be normal?

Dreaming a dream
Full of ecstasy
Smelling his smell
Full of his love
Wanting his body
Close in proximity
Needing him in
The immediate vicinity

Sweet summer nights
Cold winter days
Holding him close
Feeling his heart ace
Under his skin
Making it faster
With my every move
Soaring with him
Far and above

Dying each second
we are apart
Living each moment
I'm in his arms

What if you walked in
Right now?
What if you saw me like this?
With my dirty hair and my glasses on?
In just my sweatshirt and jeans?
With no make-up on?
What if you saw me sick?
Sneezing and coughing with a runny nose?
Would you turn away in disgust?

What if you saw me like this?
What if you walked away 'cause I'm
So different from who I was before
I'm not the girl I used to bed
No the girl you made love to on those cold winter nights and those rainy summer days

I don't paint my nails anymore.
I don't wear a size two.
I'm just a single woman looking
For a good night not a commitment
Still got my standards and my morals
You see I'm still just myself
I might not look the same as I did back then but I still wonder and I still worry

What if you saw me like this?
What if you walk away 'cause I'm
So different from who I was before
I'm not the girl I used to be
Not the girl you made love to on those cold winter nights and those rainy summer afternoons.

When I'm in my more thoughtful moods
I wonder who we would have been
I wonder if you still think about those rainy summer days
Do you still love me like I love you?
Or am I just a memory...

What if you saw me like this?
What if you stay by me?
Would it turn out the same?
Or would we work this time?
Do you want to find out
Starting right now
Then come home to me...

Inspiration: Anna Dagmar and the song "Breakfast at Tiffany's"

"Party poems"

Vampires
Witches
Warlocks
Banshees

Pound
Pound
Pound
Pound

Connected
Repaired
Together
Whole

Torn
Apart
Forever
Alone

Even
In
A
Crowd

Alone
On
My
Bed

Forever
Alone
Forever
Apart

Confusion
Reigns
With-in
My heart

Confusion
Forever
Leave me
Alone

Curled up in a ball
Wanting some peace
Leave me alone
Get your arm off of me

 

6/23

Forever
This love is
Forever
Like a brother
Forever
Protector
Forever
Savior
Forever
Hero
Forever
Love
Forever

6/23

Sitting alone on a step
He came over
Just to talk.
When the cause
Of my troubles
Walked over,
Around my shoulder or
On my knee, his arm went.
*Perfect* reaction.
Forever grateful.
I love him.
Forever and a day.
My brother,
My friend,
Amazing.

Sometimes

7/2

Sometimes I feel inadequate.
Sometimes I am shallow.
Sometimes I don't measure up.
Sometimes I am weak.

Sometimes I feel thoughtful.
Sometimes I am empowered.
Sometimes I don't worry my day away.
Sometimes I am strong.

Sometimes doesn't cut it.
Sometimes is too much.
Sometimes just won't work.
Sometimes isn't good.

Sometimes must change.
Sometimes is not enough.
Sometimes must increase.
Sometimes is not okay.

Sometimes I can't speak.
Sometimes I can't move.
Sometimes I can't think.
     All because of you.